I'm out running around pretty regularly with my camera in my pocket. (I even have 1200 shots on my memory card!) Sometimes I take a shot that turns out mucho better than I expected, but I've forgotten about it. I rediscovered this shot of Saujac through the morning mist on the left, when I was putting together some calendars for myself for the rest of the year. I also
have a few special flower shots that I want to blend in for you to enjoy.
I'm feeling a little pushed today because I have my first batch of company coming for a few days at the end of the week. I want the Chatette to look its best, so I'm out cutting the grass (yes again) and doing a little re-arranging, re-decorating and some purging. One of the nicer side effects of this is that I'm having fun as I look much closer at the Mélange-ing Magic Room!
When company is on the way and I'm running around like a chicken with my head cut off, I have frequently asked myself: why do I make myself so crazy with this stuff and why don't I care more about it when it's just for me?
As much as I hate to admit it, there has always been this part of me that doesn't feel good enough... that I should be better...I should be more, hmmm-maybe perfect? Those feelings rise to the surface when I may be judged by others, and especially scream when company is coming. I've done this enough now with myself and the Chatette, that I know it really doesn't matter. We're special! People who come to see us aren't going to care if I've put on a few pounds or my hair is a little grayer. They're not going to notice a little crud in the corners or dog hair under the sofa in the Chatette. They're coming to see "us" and share an incredible, romantic, magical experience here in the Lot!
I recently realized that a spotless house isn't a priority for me. I'd rather be reading, gardening, biking, playing piano, or an endless list of other things...than say, cleaning the refrigerator! I admit it feels good when it's done, but the reward of cleanliness in and of itself isn't something I need on a weekly basis!
It feels really good to be able to say outloud that I'm not perfect and the Chatette's not perfect! I hope that anyone who comes will be more concerned about the history, the romance and a one of a kind experience, than getting out their white glove! And besides, who is to say what's "perfect" anyway?
It took me coming here to finally "get it"! I can be a little slow sometimes!
Posted by: Laury Bourgeois | June 23, 2009 at 02:52 PM
I love the shot of Saujac in the mist! I feel your pain about getting the house all spiffed up for company. I think it's a genetic trait in women. I do the same thing and every time after the company is gone, I'm amazed that not once did anyone say "Oh, your house is so neat, clean and decorator-perfect." They do frequently say how much fun they're having or how great it is to spend time together. Think I'd 'get it' eventually, huh?
Posted by: Evelyn Jackson | June 23, 2009 at 02:47 PM