One of the most difficult things about the last year plus, has been the dangle dance of the unknowns in my life. I've teased that I'm living into the questions and being "flexible". I've tried to take each step along the way as it came, and respond accordingly. It now looks like I have a plan.
I'm calling it my 4-4-4. It's already begun and it's looking like four months in New Orleans, four months in Cadrieu, and four months in St. Louis. I'm finding comfort in having some idea of what the months ahead are going to look like for Sammie cat and I. I believe that there are two elements to success in this plan: first, it appears that my life and my work are "portable", and second, it is going to be important for me to do everything I can to make each place mine and to be able to feel "home" there. I realize that I'm ahead of the game. I'm set with work opportunities, I have family and/or friendships networks already established in all three places, and I have a place to "be" in each.
Looking back to those times in October of 2012 when Dali, Sam and I left Cadrieu, we had no idea what our lives were going to be. I knew we had to be able to respond to what was happening for Dali, what was happening with my parents, and that Columbus Street needed to be a happier place. Adding in this St. Louis piece feels natural and necessary. We've spent almost a year and a half trying to see what was happening around us, and now we know. That doesn't mean that it might not change, but for now I believe that this will work.
Trust me. I know that this is a luxury in having the freedom and flexibility to be able to respond to all that is happening in my life and for my family. But then...there is this part of me that is feeling that I very might well have the BEST of all of these three worlds. Ah, that's a story for another post!
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