As we all try to sort out our lives with this pandemic, I am constantly grateful that I am in this place. There is a peace in this place that is indescribable.
It leaves me speechless regularly, but I still try my best with my photos and words.
Yes, I'm in France. Yes, it is wonderful. But, it is just my little spot on the Lot that is my heaven on earth. I have learned over time that I must protect "us!" It can be very easy to muck it up if you're not paying attention.
I believe that we are heading to MORE heaven these days.
Since I began these pandemic times in New Orleans, it is difficult not to compare the two. While I was in New Orleans, I realized that my life in New Orleans was becoming more like my life in Cadrieu...more solitary. I have a very "people-y" life in New Orleans. That changed during the pandemic. I found myself: doing more projects; sending more cards and letters to friends at special times; ordering on-line; and,
finding small joys easier.
Even so, being in the middle of the insanity of the United States and all that was happening day to day and sometimes moment to moment; I experienced a hyper-vigilance around all safety. That, lead to continuous stress. Doing the simplest of activities required major preparation to be around people. Sometimes, that meant that I was just as happy to be alone. It felt like everything was hanging and uncertain.
Here, I live relatively stress-free. Oh, there are things to be done and decisions to make, but here I know I am safe.
There are still the concerns around the virus, but I always felt that I could do my best with that regardless, and I still do.
I still feel like we're dangling. Really, the whole world is these days. Everything feels uncertain. I tried to put it into words with my sister on the phone the other day. We agreed.
We are "hovering!"
I mentioned that I couldn't be in a better place to be hovering.
From my hovering, I feel like I have a very safe place to land. I believe that it will be a very gentle landing for me from here.
As I watch all that is going on in the states and chat with family and friends, we agree about the hovering.
It's the landing they can't be sure of. I see gentle for me. They see crash landing for them.
You'll notice, I have lights and life n my tunnel.
Let's hope it is a gentle one for the world!
Happy Monday!
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