It's been a very long time since I blogged here, or did any major writing of any length that I usually enjoy. Life and living seems to take a special kind of stick-to-it-ness these days that has meant taking everything a step at a time, in the moment, and sometimes just trudging on and moving forward the best I can.
To a certain degree, I've just put the blinders on and moved forward...sometimes paying attention to what's in my path and other times just pushing those things in the path to the side until I felt like dealing with them. The problem was that there were some things I just didn't feel like dealing with at all. Everything felt huge. Everything felt problematic. Everything felt difficult. It seemed that it was hard to be excited about anything that would usually excite me and/or give me joy.
It was even evident leading up to Lola's arrival. We had to wait for Andy and Hilary to bring Lola to me until mid-December due to the lockdown. I was so looking forward to Lola's arrival, but I told my sister on the phone that I wanted to be excited about her arrival but for some reason couldn't. It was as if I was waiting for something to go wrong, or for another shoe to drop...too many dropping shoes! Now, I look back and realize that I deprived myself of the joy and wonder that is truly Lola. Of course, she deserves a post all her own that I will return with sometime soon!
Just recently, I've been feeling like a layer of "something" has been pulled back or is in the process of being removed here with me. There continues to be much dangling and hovering, but I am seeing and feeling more clarity for myself and our lives. Paying attention can be hard work. I'm working on the clarity I've been feeling these last days, and am feeling so much more present.
And, that's a good thing!
Happy Friday!
Hi CG-thanks for welcoming me back. It's a really nice feeling to be so welcomed and to know that I have been missed. Have a wonderful weekend-Love, Laury
Posted by: Laury Bourgeois | February 06, 2021 at 03:09 PM
Thanks so much for getting in touch here too Shirley...it is nice to be back and feels good again to see how pretty everything can be over here compared to just some of the shorter FB postings I've been making since my return. Easing back in and happy weekend-Love, Laury
Posted by: Laury Bourgeois | February 06, 2021 at 03:08 PM
So good to hear from you again. May Lola bring you much joy; we look forward to hearing more about her.
Posted by: CG | February 06, 2021 at 09:42 AM
So nice to find your post, this morning. Some of the feelings you express are how I have been dealing with life as well. I understand. So glad you have Lola.🥰. And, happy weekend ♥️
Posted by: Shirley | February 05, 2021 at 01:58 PM