Sunday morning, I found myself on the last page of Journal #123 and on my way to beginning Journal #124. I usually begin picking the next journal long before now. For some reason, this last minute change over felt ceremonious! Here I was finishing up the last day of July and getting ready to begin a whole new fresh month too with August.
Interestingly and unusually, Journal #123 held just about 6 full months!
Journaling is something that I used to do religiously. Until recently, I got up every morning and journaled no matter where I was and what I was doing. I confess that it is less than a daily activity for me these days. Once again, I am learning to let go of the "musts" that I have set for myself and am trying to do what I feel like doing in the moment.
There had been a regimen for me...coffee, journal, play piano, bike ride, blog, and get on with the day.
I used to be so rigid that it had to be in that order and every day. Now, I've loosened up on myself. The musts were only mine to hold onto.
I have always found comfort in my routines. Learning to "loosen" the musts so that I can respond more freely to how I feel in the moment has been important for me. It still feels odd. When I feel odd, I seem to want to journal more.
It's all going to shake out over time and I believe that I am going to discover a new freedom, flexibility, and new comfort level in the letting go.
Happy Monday!
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