I love taking photos of chairs. There is a lot that I love.
These days, I'm finding myself struggling to settle into a wonderful new life or the "new book" that no longer has the structures, constraints, and musts of old. I am paying attention. I am watching myself. I am feeling my feelings. I am learning a lot more about myself in a whole new way.
What do I want these next twenty years to look like?
The list of what I have given up in the last couple of years is even longer than I had been aware of. Whether it's loss or my own decisions, the reality of the GONE has been an interesting one to ponder. I could go into great detail on each of the "gones" and the impact and changes in my life. Some are huge. Some are more subtle.
One of the recent ahas for me has been that I no longer need to get onto the laptop every day. Some of that is that I have my SmartPhone and my Fire notebook, that allow me to keep up without full laptop capacity.
Another part of that is that I am no longer "working" in any capacity. Keeping up my social work license and offering workshops meant that there were periods of time when the laptop was attached to my hip.
That isn't necessary any more.
In that "gone", I have found that there are some days that I don't even want to turn the laptop on.
It feels good.
That also means, that I'm not blogging as much since I blog from the laptop and not the other devices.
I am also realizing that these days, I prefer to journal than to blog. Putting pen to paper, holding it in my hand, watching the ink travel the page of whatever pretty journal I've chosen to use next; all make it more enjoyable than pounding the keys and fighting computer and program glitches with my photos.
This "gone" is leading me to re-evaluate my blogging.
I don't want to stop completely, but I want to find my way back to loving it like I used to and blending it more naturally into this new life.
It will come, probably rising out of the space left by one or more of the gones.
Here's hoping you'll hang with me!
Happy Sunday!
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