Today is our Dad's first birthday in heaven. I like to say that it is "the day of his birth" because I don't feel the need to smack a number on it. It will always be the day of his birth! We miss him always.
But, we miss him MORE today!
Interestingly for me, I miss him more from Cadrieu.
I realized that our 7am his time 2pm my time calls were a huge part of my life here. Hearing his voice and feeling his love for me every day was special. He was a huge part of my life and it enabled me to share my life here with him.
Last fall, I inherited a beautiful Lady and the Unicorn tapestry from Evelyn when she returned to the states in November.
I rested it on top of the new monster book case, knowing it would be spectacular with the stone wall as a backdrop. I'd decided that I would buy a tapestry pillow cover for one of my pillows in the living room so it would all be pulled together theme-wise.
I told Dad about it on one of our calls.
He didn't really know the Lady and the Unicorn, so I told him I'd gather some information for him and drop it in the mail so he could see it.
As I gathered, I learned a lot myself. I had seen the original tapestries in the Cluny Museum on my first trip to Paris in '92. I thought that there were 5. Turns out there are 6: 5 representing the senses and one entitled: A Mon Seul Desir. It was fun to talk about them with Dad. We figured out that mine was "Smell!" He said: "They are really neat!" I told him that I was going to treat myself to a pillow cover of the tapestry.
I guess you've figured out by now, I bought more than one.
Last week, I ordered a number of small things that I wanted to round out the Chatette a bit more: a tiny frige for the in between room upstairs, some books, and the tapestry pillow covers.
As I looked at the site again, they were all there! I decided to buy 5 and treat the Chatette and I to more pretty. Had I ordered before the holidays, it would have been just the one.
I wouldn't have wanted to spend the extra money on something I didn't have to have. But now, with Dad's departure on New Year's Day we were each left with a little money from Mom and Dad.
It's a luxury to be able to feel the "enough" from time to time!
I might be sitting without him on that picnic bench these days, but Dad is everywhere. These memories and his spirit live in those tapestry pillows.
No wonder I want to hug them all the time.
Happy Birthday, Dad!
Happy Wednesday!